A Glance Back
Jan 01
So, another year has passed. It’s been a year I will be glad to see end and the slate on a new one clean and ready to go.
The overwhelming event of this past year was the rather abrupt loss of my father followed by my one brother’s rather bizarre and hostile behaviour. Then there was the loss of one of my feline friends in October.
On the upside, out of the loss of dad, four of his five kids have been drawn closer and more communication has been taking place between us than in many past years. Hopefully that will continue… (note, call your sister stupid). So in a way, I’ve gained closer ties with a sister and a brother and lost contact with another brother… no, can’t lose what never was. He will have to work out what ever petty resentments he’s apparently harboured since he was a little boy. Maybe some day he will grow up and put aside childish things.
Also on the upside, a rather caring and valued friend has motivated me to walk with her once a week. Walking for the sake of walking isn’t something I normally would be motivated to but couple that with the company of a good friend and a quiet environment to walk in — it has fast become something I look forward to each week.
For the first time in 29 years I missed a Remembrance Day. I spent the day confined to the couch with a stress related illness I haven’t had an attack of in about 7 years. I knew the day was going to be difficult without dad, just never dreamed it would be that difficult. It took about a week to fully recover from the attack although I was off the couch by the third day. In a way, I felt like I let dad down but I guess I really let myself down more.
I got to spend a week with my youngest sister in November. Her and I have always been close but don’t always have time to get together just one on one. I enjoyed the time we had. While she was here we found a kitten for me to bring home, we named her Dawn. Not because I wanted to name a cat after my father, there was something about her eyes when we looked at her that seemed to just say the word “dawn”. Maybe following the deaths of two I cared so much about, it was a new start.
This winter, so far, hasn’t been a winter in the sense that most Canadians understand. We’ve had one snowfall that actually accumulated more than an inch or so of snow on the ground and another couple that dropped some snow but not enough to really call a snow fall. None of the snow has lasted.
Christmas is not a season I particularly enjoy. It is one I get through and New Years is the sign that once more, “I got through it”. I spent this Christmas down at my youngest sister’s which was a bonus. I got to spend some time with my niece and nephew which I have a good relationship with and extra time with my sister. The downside of being away at Christmas is that I don’t get to do one of the things which is important to me, that is attending Christmas services at my home church. I can go to a church where I am but it means worshiping with strangers rather than the faith community I’m part of.
So, 2006 has drawn to a close and time to look towards 2007. I can’t read the future, just live it as it comes.
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